Monthly Archives: April 2008

Here I go!

Hi everyone. This is Erika and I’ll start by saying that it all started in 4th grade. From there, I progressed to the 180 pound high school freshman, to the 125 pound high school freshman, to the 175 pound high school senior, to the 210 pound college student to the 140 pound career starter to the 160 pound chick who’s writing this blog. With that said, know that I will always feel like a big girl whether my weight is up or down. I am, in every sense of the words, addicted to food. However, over the course of the past five years, I have managed to keep my horrible eating habits under fairly good control. I got down to about 140 in 2004 but have managed to work my way back up to 160 as of today, April 30, 2008. I admit that I know exactly what I should and shouldn’t be doing to lose weight but comfort, laziness, willpower, motivation, and most importantly, portion control, are the main reasons why I have gained and maintained my extra 20lbs. for so long (2 yrs. to be exact).

So now I’m ready to not only lose the 20 but an additional 15. For the most part, I eat pretty healthy. My problems w/ food are mainly portion control, late night snacking, and visiting my mom on the weekend who loves to cook, bake, and make anything and everything my little fat heart desires. So along with my ladies, I will take part in a weekly weigh-in to track my progress and keep you all up to date. I’ve also decided to keep of diary of the foods I eat everyday to get a better understanding of exactly how much I’m putting into my body. But believe it or not, that’s not going to be the most difficult part. While I spent a large part of my childhood playing organized sports, I’ve always HATED cardio workouts. Can’t stress that enough. But I also know that without it, my body will not shed the pounds and shape itself the way I’d like it to or as quickly as I’d like it to. The upside to this is that I know if I get on a good regimen for about a month, and start seeing results, it will definitely motivate me to work harder. Plus the fact that ya’ll will know whether I’m losing or gaining definitely lights a fire under my ass. Here I go!

And still down a pound…

I went Jenny Craig today.  I lost another pound!  So I’m down 7.5 lbs.  I’m really happy with my progress, but I want to push myself even harder.  I know I can do better.  I walked 2 miles on Thursday and did 4 miles on the cross-trainer (sort of like an ellyptical) on Sunday…but the weekend was terrible.  We had a party Friday – I ate nothing but had 3 VERY strong drinks.  Party Saturday – I ate a moderate amount of dinner, 2 slices of cake and way too much Champaign.  Sunday – out to dinner.  Very small portions and only a tiny bit of liquor.  So I guess my workouts have all been just to wash off the damage the weekend could have done.

I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster with my “period” this month – and I’ve really got the blues.  I’m going to the gym now to put in 4 miles.  Maybe it’ll pick me up.  I’ve yet to experience the gym craving or the high from exercise.  I feel a lil cheated.  Anyway, I’m taking my fat, black ass to the gym to make it happen.  I have an idea for an editorial to write so I’ll get working on that for you ladies tonight.

Love & Support – My

Yoga Aint No Joke and Other Revelations

Today is weigh-in #1, and before I reveal my results, I just want to recap my week. It started really badly. I wasn’t taking it seriously, and I damn sure wasn’t exercising. Anyhoo, Tuesday, I really got my act together. I’m still not the healthiest eater, but I’m moving my ass. As I keep stressing, Jillian Michaels is the truth! I’ve been doing Level 1 of her 30 day Shred, and I’ve been sweating my ass off! I feel like I’ve run a 5k after doing those 20 minutes. And you know what? My body is starting to crave the workout. I feel so anxious if I don’t work out. I do my workouts in the evenings. It’s a great stress reliever, and the workout prepares my body for blissful slumber.  So I’m doing Jillian 5 days a week (Tues-Sat) and on Sundays I’m doing a 20-min yoga workout. Let me tell you something: Yoga aint no joke!!! I didn’t know you could bust a sweat. Who knew finding your center and breathing could be a workout. Oh yeah, Mondays are my rest days.

After years of abusing my body by fueling it with garbage, I really am trying to eat better. Anyone who knows me, knows that I cannot stand water. To combat that, I’ve begun putting my water in a wine goblet. It’s so chic, and it tricks me into thinking I’m drinking something really nice. I also found these great square bowls at Tar-jay for about a $1.38 each. They’re gorgeous, and I use them to put my meals and snacks in. It helps me control my portions and it’s so chic. I love chic!

Now, for the weigh-in: I now tip the scales at 183. That’s a 4 pound loss! I am psyched! Next week, I hope to say goodbye to the 180’s forever! Wish me luck, and I’ll holla at ya’ll on Wednesday!

Something To Strive For

Every time I look at this pic, I’m like “Who Is This Woman, and how can I get her back.” The first pic was snapped before my descent into hell. My skin was smooth. My body was tight! I wasn’t small, but there was no flab. My clothes hugged all the curves just right. There’s no double chin. My boobs were much smaller. I could go on…. This photo inspires me to get off my ass and do those 20 minutes with Jillian “The Biyotch” Michaels. The second pic on the other hand is me now. Check my makeup. It’s my attempt to mask my fat face, but it really only accentuates it. For those of you reading this post and thinking “She is so f*cking vain. What’s the big deal…..?” The big deal is once you are a certain size-your happy-to-be-in-the-skin-you’re-in-size, you don’t want to be any other way. This isn’t vanity or some attempt to garner sympathy or all the “You don’t look so bad” remarks. No, no, no! I am trying to get my swag back. I’m single again, and I can’t get back on the scene without any self-confidence.

Myia told me that 8 lbs was something I could achieve in 56 days. Yeah, it’s achievable, but there are hurdles. Unlike the others, I’m not a big drinker, so I’m relatively safe there. My biggest hurdle is the late night snack attack. I swear my mind is f*cking with me. I’ll be totally satiated one minute, then five minutes later, I’m raiding my kitchen for whatever. Lord, give me strength!


This is me now…

Chris and I went to Punta Cana early April.  I was probably about 187 in this pic.  I dieted well before we got there – but once we were there…I was plastered daily.  There really wasn’t much else to do.  It was SO fun!dominicana gorda

Back in the day…happy & sexy

2005 when I was in a size 8This is me hanging with 2 of my 3 best friends in LA.  We were hanging out at The Hollywood & Highland.  I was wearing a shirt from Charlotte Ruse – I can’t shop there anymore.  The pants were a size 8.  My face was so thin.  I’m on my way back – to skinny and to Cali 🙂

Diet food is the worst!!

Hi all, Alisa here.  So, this is my first full day on Jenny Craig, and it isn’t too bad, but it seemed a lot easier when I was on it a year ago.  For some reason the food just doesn’t taste as good as it use to.  Not that I am complaining, it’s a whole lot better than the fruit and rice diet I tried a few years back (worst diet ever! But the fastest results) At least on Jenny when I took the weight off I was able to keep it off.  Anyway, Myia and I went to our first official weigh in yesterday and I was down to 186.6 fully clothed and at the worst point in the month.  You girls know what I’m talkin about!  So, that’s already 1.4 lbs down and only one more small child to go.  It’s hard to think that I still need to lose 20 lbs to be where I was before, so I am trying to make small goals for myself.  I want to be down another two pounds by Monday which is my next weigh in, but this weekend is going to be bad.  There is a party on Friday, my fathers birthday on Saturday and a dinner out on Sunday.  I can try to go easy on the food, but the drinks are hard to stay away from.  A girls gotta be social.  I will try to balance it out with some good exercise and a LOT of water, and I will try not to go overboard.  This is just the beginning, so it’s time to get serious, be focused and, as Myia says, ‘MAKE IT HAPPEN!’

It’s On Biyatch!!!

I just read Myia’s post, and I’m hating! HOW IN THE HELL DID SHE LOSE 6.5 pounds in 2 days? I told ya’ll this was a (friendly) competition. I love it! You go girl!

I need to lose 20 lbs to be fat…

I’ve been saying this for the last year and a half.  I’m so huge and pudgy that I need to lose 20lbs in order to have someone say, “Ooo, did you do something with your hair?” Seriously.  I’ve gone up and down so much over the last 2 years that everyone swears to me that I don’t look like I’ve gained a pound.  Are you sh!tting me?  I’ve gained 60 POUNDS!  I tell them I’m 200 lbs and they say, “You look exactly like you’ve always looked.” That just proves my need to lose to be considered fat.  It’s like, I’ve been so fat for so long, they only remember me this way.  When I lose this first 20, they’ll be like, “Damn! You really are fat.  You just lost 20 and you look like you still need to lose another 60!”  So I’m trying to take on each one of those 60 – 1 pound at a time.  Here’s how the week went…

Today is really day 2 for me when it should be day 4, but I’m in it to win it now!  I was terrible Sunday & Monday.  All I could think about was how hard it would be and how long it would take to lose 60 pounds.  I even cried!  That’s so NOT me.  I’m very confident and I’m usually not down on myself physically, but Monday night was a breaking point for me.  I cried in bed to my boyfriend and he assured me that, “Since [I] am so fat, the weight will just fall off.”  Exactly!  I heard, “Oh babe.  Just lose 20 lbs and you’ll only be fat…as opposed to massively whalish like you are now.’

To spite him, and myself, I started anew! I took a laxative – not to do any eating disorder ‘ish, but to cleans out all the junk.  I felt SO backed up and stiff thru my middle.  It made me not even want to move I felt so thick and knotted.  The laxative was PERFECT!  Within 6 hours, I voided all transactions from the past month.

And, I’m proud to report that I did the best workout I’ve ever done yesterday.  I was home sick from work – but once I started feeling better, I went to the gym (for the 2nd time in 6 months) and did 45 mins RUNNING on the ellyptical.  I too maintained 150 heart rate for my entire workout.  So many times I wanted to quit, but I didn’t.  I’m very proud of myself.  With that kickstart – I walked a mile with Alisa last night will eating low-cal, fat-free “ice cream.” Then I had Jenny Craig for dinner.  Today, I’ve been perfect on my food diet, have drank 64oz of Crystal Light and I’m currently finishing up my Jenny dinner.  I went to Jenny Craig for the first time almost two months today to get back on track, get food, and weigh in.  I’m 193.6 – FULLY DRESSED. 

I do believe I was 200 or really close to it on Sunday, but the “cleanse,” fluids and eating well over the last couple days has gotten rid of the bulk.  So now I’m working on the real fat.  I’m ready to do this.  I know I’m not going to be perfect – but I tell you what, my fat ass is going to lose it!

So Trice, you HAVE to get on it.  I’m already down 6.5 lbs.  Catch me if you can!

Damn, Damn, Damn!!!!

Hi. It’s Trice. I have been so bad these last three days, it aint even funny. First of all, don’t start a new, dare I say, diet, without food shopping first. You set yourself up for all kinds of disasters. I’ve been eating garbage all week-french fries, a half smoke, cheez curlz. Hold up! Don’t I get credit for eating organic cheez curlz? I should. They’re bland as hell. They’re only good for the crunch factor. One thing I can say: I haven’t had a soda in two whole days. That’s like two weeks in Trice years. I’m on a streak. I’ve drank a bottle of water a day. That’s like a liter in Trice years. Give me some credit dammit! I’m weak. I’m struggling. I’m losing something alright. I’m losing my damn mind!

As far as exercise is concerned, I’m a day late and a dollar short. I did not work out Monday as planned. I can give you a thousand and one excuses, but they are just that-excuses. I did start yesterday, and I damn near died! I’m doing Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred. It’s three, 20 minute workouts, and when I tell you that that 20 minutes felt like 20 hours, I am not exaggerating! You may think 20 minutes aint jack, but for someone who is relatively inactive, it really feels like an hour.  I was sweating buckets! My heart rate averaged about 150 which is great. My body aches, which is a good sign. I do my workouts in the evening. One, it really helps me unwind from my day, and two, it really prepares my body for a great, deep sleep. I just need to go to sleep a little earlier.

I’m dying to see how Myia’s post will read. I think she’s been as bad as I’ve been. We’re sisters, but I think there’s a secret competition going on between us. Later, gators!

Check out the two fat, black chicks on Christmas. Guess who’s whom?

Fat, black Chicks at Christmas