Monthly Archives: May 2008
Last night Myia and I helped our cousin’s girlfriend get ready for his prom. I’d never met Amanda before, and when I saw her I was stunned by her. She was a very striking young woman. Amanda had never gone anywhere that required her to get all glammed up, so Myia and I were only too happy to assist this diamond in the ruff. Myia had hair duty, which I kid you not, was literally down to her butt, and it was healthy, minus a few fly-aways (but who doesn’t have those.) I was on makeup patrol. She really didn’t need any, but we wanted to give her a little color.
To wrap this little story up, I came home and pulled out my own prom pics, and I took a little trip down memory lane. I looked fab in my gown. It was a Jessica McClintock original. She was, at the time, the queen of prom dresses, and I of course waited til the last minute to get mine. My silly self had turned down two invites from a couple of guys who would be deemed nerds today. Actually, they were back then too. I had debated whether I’d go at all, but of course, my mother coerced me. My aunt Margie offered to buy my gown and we went shopping at Hecht’s (now Macy’s.) I didn’t have a particular style in mind. I only knew that it had to be black. I ended up choosing this long, black, taffeta gown. The top was white taffeta with these huge puffed sleeves and black polka dots all over. It was the bomb!!! I wore three and a half inch heels, and my god-sister Boobie came over to do my hair and makeup. I hated my hair though. I’d gone to the salon, and that witch butchered me. Boobie did the best she could. Well, that was almost twenty years ago-1989 to be exact. Looking at the photo has inspired me to amp up my workout. I am not seeing the results I want. I am putting an end to the little cheats I give myself. It’s thwarting my efforts. I’m turning over a new leaf! I’ll holla…..
Every Memorial Day our family has a cookout. It’s not a barbecue, but a cookout. What’s the difference? A cookout is when you fire up that rusty, old ass grill that’s been sitting in the backyard all year long. A barbecue is when you have a lovely, stainless steel gas grill on your deck, and you invite your co-workers or associates to come partake of your booze and your food. Okay, I made all that up, but you kinda get my drift.
Myia’s in town this weekend, and we started the weekend off right. She made a delicious warm, steak salad, with these chunky mushrooms, red onion wedges, chunky steak bits, and salad greens. It was the best damn salad I’ve ever had-no joke. It was fucking delicious! I am salivating at the thought. i am going to Giant Monday and buying the ingredients and making my own. We topped it with this chunky, fat-free, blue cheese dressing. OMG! You must try it.
I am nervous as hell about going to the family cookout. I have no self-control when it comes to barbecue. The chicken, the ribs, the potato salad. It’s all home-style which means it aint healthy. I know I’ll gain at least 2 pounds before the weekend is over. I’m still at 179-no gain, no loss. I’m a little disappointed. Actually, I’m a lot disappointed. I am admittedly taking to many cheat days. I am slowly weening myself off the M&Ms. They are my downfall. Enough yapping for now. I’ll check in on Monday with the gory details of “The Cookout.” Later on today, I’m going to attempt to do Level 2 of The Biggest Loser workout. It’s a high-powered, 30 minute, boot camp-style workout. It’s continuous movement. Even the warm up and cool down are intense (and I hate yoga.) I’ll holla….
Why must the Earth be made of carbs? Over the past few days, I’ve felt like the only other option to carbs I have are salads. And after a long day at work, I don’t feel like chopping tomatoes and slicing cucumbers. Nor do I feel like having the same salad every freaking night. I’m just sick of feeling guilty after every carb I eat. UGH! – So let me ask you ladies a question. Beside my usual fruit salad, which I still love, are there any other GOOD TASTING, QUICK AND EASY TO MAKE, LOW-CARB snacks or side dishes to add to a meal?
On a lighter note, I’ve hit my first 5 pound mark! Hopefully I don’t eat and drink Memorial Day weekend away and ruin my 3 1/2 weeks of hard work. Fingers crossed.
Hey to all my sisters united in Fatdom. Reading Myia’s Fatfirmation has inspired me to re-evaluate my progress. I am a stickler for sweating the small stuff. I can’t even workout without running my to-do list in my head at least three times. I actually pause the DVD to jot down a thought so I don’t forget it. In my opinion, that’s a little too OCD even for me. I’m trying my damndest not to focus on the numbers, but instead focus on my progress. Let’s run a few of them down, shall we?
- My fave pair of slacks from Lane Bryant, a size 16 are too big in the waist and the leg. They actually make that “swoosh” sound when I walk in them. I wish they had belt loops, but they don’t. I don’t know if I’ll be wearing them again. They just don’t flatter anymore.
- I can do 20 push-ups (albeit modified) without stopping.
- I can do 30 seconds of high knees without stopping. Hey, that’s majorly major for moi!
- My XL blouses now actually fit. When I say fit, I mean my biceps aren’t stretching the fabric (my tits are still humongous though, so I’m still wearing a safety pin.)
- I bough a KitKat today, and after eating the 2nd wafer, I was actually DONE! I didn’t even want the last two pieces. (They will be consumed tomorrow however. Waste not, want not:-)
So, after listing all these minor accomplishments, my goal is to stay focused on the big picture-eating healthy and incorporating some form of movement into my day. These have been my biggest obstacles all along. They say it takes something like 21 days before something becomes a habit. I’ve been at this over a month. It still feels like a chore, but it’s become a must-have instead of a must-do. I’ll holla……….
Wednesday’s are the day that we have to take a little time out to appreciate ourselves and take stock of where we are and where we’re going. Are you sticking to your weekly goals? Where are you in terms of your long term goals? How do you feel? Have you given yourself enough praise for the work you’ve done? Take it all in and blog it all out.
Overall, I’m down 11 pounds. That means only 14 pounds until I can consider myself “fat” [according to my bmi and weight charts, I’m currently obese]. That’s only 64 pounds left to lose. That’s down a 1/2 a pant size.
Myia’s Sweating the Small Stuff: I put on a pair of GAP slacks this week (size 16) and they were so big I couldn’t where them. They looked hideous. I was so happy!! A great pair of $80 pants that I can’t wear anymore. Yay!
God grant me the serenity to neglect the things I should not eat. The strength to only eat the things I can and the wisdom to…
You can fill in the blank with whatever your problem of the day might be. For me (right now) I’ll fill it in like this…
– To go the gym tonight, Thursday and workout Saturday
– To drink enough water each day
– To avoid taking a drink, even though times are feeling pretty rough
– To smile at myself, even if I want to frown at everyone else – I’m losing weight and loving myself
– To work hard at everything I do, no matter what!
Thanks for swinging by the site. Feel free to join us in our journey – it seems you’re already well on your way. I LOVE your mile-stones. I need to do something like that everytime I go to the gym or walk a mile at a time. It does sound like a nice way to remind one’s self of the little things that make a big differnece.
Congrats on quitting smoking. That’s the hugest news ever. I don’t know you, but I’m very proud of you. I’m addicted to food, shopping and to a degree, social drinking. If I could break any of those, I’d feel like a queen. You’ve kicked what some people would consider the biggest, most common bad, yet legal habit.
Thanks for stopping by and hope to hear more from you.
Very different from the phrase “I need to get laid,” but still quite important. Anyway, I haven’t been weighed in about 3 weeks – maybe 2.5, but not getting weighed is getting in my way – and I can’t give an accurate report to my fellow sisters in weight loss.
I had a not so great Friday & Saturday. Friday, I ate meals ok, but I had 2 drinks and 2 cookies. Then I went to Atlantic City yesterday. I had quite a few drinks. I know better and I should have made a better effort to stay dry, but I didn’t. My meals weren’t terrible, but I did have a Starbucks cookie, which is probably 1/2 the original reason for my fatness.
Anyhoo, I was back in the gym today punishing myself for fatgressions. I did my normal hour on the ellyptical but I added my arms into the mix; which I usually steer clear of. I also did a lot of backwards action which is very taxing – but I learned it does a lot of work on the rear saddles. Good to know. I did 80 situps – I’m going to really pay for that tomorrow – and I did 5lb weights on my arms for 40 reps and a good 10 – 15 mins of dancing and stretching with the weights in hand. I was at the gym about 30 mins longer than usual and afterwards – and even now, I’m totally spent.
I made a nice healthy dinner with TONS of veggies, lean chicken and rice. It was delicious! Of course I had my Jenny breakfast and I also had a banana and 2 apples today. Even though it’s late, I may have an activia yogurt before I go to bed. But only if I get my sweet tooth going.
I’m going to go to Jenny tomorrow to get weighed in and to stock up on my essentials. Then it’s back to the gym tomorrow night – which is an additional workout for the week since I did all that dag on drinking this weekend. I’m praying for a stress free week, but if it isn’t. I’m going to try to just add more exercise. Maybe that will calm me down.
Let’s give some extra support to Alisa. She has her thyroid problems and is not getting the proper hormone doses – which of course helps her gain weight faster and makes it more difficult to lose. But, we need to help her understand that getting her healthy lifestyle started now will keep her from gaining more weight and make it that much easier to stay in the swing of things once her levels level off. It’s easier to lose 60 lbs than 80!
UPDATE: I LOST 11 POUNDS SO FAR!
I know I could have probably lost another 2-3 pounds over the last week. Inhaling a combination of peanut and peanut butter M&M’s has not helped my efforts, but you know what? I feel pretty damned good about it. I didn’t freak out or give up like I normally do. Six months ago, if I wouldn’t have seen huge numbers move on the scale, I would have said “Fuck it,” and gone to Hogs On the Hill for a large BBQ pork rib platter with homestyle potato salad, collard greens, corn bread, and sweet potato pie. Damn that sounds good right about now. I’m salivating at the thought.
This week, I’m graduating to Level 2 of Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred. I’m ready because Level 1 is actually easy and predictable. I’m also doing The Biggest Loser Cardio Max twice a week. That ish aint no joke! I think I actually like it better than Jillian’s workout.
The slow and steady approach is really working for me. I set myself up for disappointment when I place to many high expectations on myself. Yes, I’m thwarting my weight loss efforts to a degree when I give in to my temptations, but I’ve learned not to give up. I have learned the art of compromise, but more importantly, I’ve learned the meaning of perseverance.
So it’s Friday. The weekend is beginning, work is done and we’re about to veer off course from that stagnant routine that keeps us eating right and working out. If you’re like me in fattitude (that’s fat-attitude, mental state not physical), the weekend brings thoughts of over endulgence…laying around and just chillin’ – probably with some food, drink (liquor or soda) and just vegging out. The work week is hard and stressful and when the weekend comes, the last thing I want to do is work – and let’s face it – keeping up a healthy lifestyle when you’ve got a bad fattitude is really hard to do.
Well, that’s why we’re here for each other. We should be blogging through the weekend. Weekend blogging is about full disclosure. Tell every dirty calorie and every inactive minute. When you have to be held accountable, you’ll feel less likely to buck routine and splurge.
Now, it is ok to reward yourself with something small. Maybe you want a couple Hershey Kisses, a 1/4 cup of PLAIN M&Ms or 1 SMALL piece of fried chicken. Just remember that you have to report the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth to your sisters in “losin’ it.” And, if you do have a little treat, make sure to add an extra glass of water and 15 additional minutes of activity – maybe using a hula hoop, walking the mall or dancing in your underwear. It’s the weekend, you’re allowed to make your activities fun and inspired too.
Blog you tomorrow with Full Disclosure Saturday FATfirmations.