Monthly Archives: June 2008

“I’m A Size Active” Just Doesn’t Cut It For Me

Those new Jenny Craig commercials piss me off. I lost 60 pounds and now I’m a size healthy. Sheeeeeeeeeeeet, if I could lose 60 pounds, I’d be screaming, “I’m the fuckin’ bomb. Hi Haters!” I want to be healthy sure, but I want to feel and look gorgeous. Why can’t we just say that? Okay, that’s it. I’m done. Talk to ya’ll later.

My Fat Ass Is Tired!!!

Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. In looking at the two pics, I honestly don’t see much of a difference, but I’m happy to report that I have lost a size. I’m down to a 14 from a tight 16. I’m a little disappointed, because I’ve been busting my ass with these workouts, and I feel like I’m not getting anywhere (could it be those late night cookie raids?) I’m tired ya’ll. It seems like the weight appeared overnight, but it aint fallin off overnight. My arms still look like two 1/2 pound burger patties. WTF???? I’m doing more bicep curls and push ups than I’ve ever done. Please forgive me. It’s late, and I want cookies, so I’m going through a slight withdrawal.

Thank you Ryan for blowing up my head bigger than it already is. Thank you Brigitte for the lovely compliment on my smile. Naturalmel-hang in there girl. I’m with you all the way! I’m going to eat some fruit cocktail while I check out my shop over at Etsy. I’ll holla……

Can You See A Difference?

Okay, I’m obsessed. Does my face look smaller? The first pic was taken on 3/1/08. The second today-6/15/08. Let a sista know. Please.


Happy Days Are Here Again…!

Hey ya’ll,

I am so freakin excited! My new course of action is working. I’ve lost 5 more pounds. I got on the scale this morning, and it read 175. What a breakthrough! I swear just two days ago, I was about to throw in the towel. I measured my waistline, and it was a whopping 38 inches. I felt so defeated. That was only a one inch  loss since I started working out in April. I’ve been busting my balls working out, and I’ve only lost a freakin inch in my waist! I was about to go on a major binge, when something just stopped me. Call it divine intervention. I don’t know. There was this inner voice telling me not to give up, and I didn’t. I’ve been sticking to my workouts diligently. Two a day. I’ve incorporated 30 minutes of Pilates into my regimen once a week. I’ve been cutting off my meals by 8:45pm (ok, the 8:30 threshold wasn’t quite working.) I’ve been in the bed by 10:15pm every night, and it’s back up at 6:15am to start my day. The morning workouts have really bolstered my confidence and stamina. I look forward to starting my day after working out in the mornings now. When I get home in the evenings, I’m mentally exhausted, but I workout. If I don’t, I feel so guilty, that I push myself even harder he next day. So, my confidence and determination are now renewed. I’m sticking with the plan, and I look forward to the next 5 pounds. I’ll holla….

A New Course Of Action

This plateau is weighing heavily on my mind. It’s 2008, and I’ll be damned if I go through another summer wearing black or 3/4 length sleeves. Here’s my short-term game plan:

  1. Keep a food diary for one week to really assess what I’m stuffing down my throat.
  2. Amp up my workouts. I’m currently on Level 2 of Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred. It’s 20 minutes of hell and back, but I plan to do two workouts a day: I’ll do the advanced Level 1 in the morning and the beginner Level 2 in the evening. That will be a total of 40 minutes of exercise a day.
  3. Stop eating by 8:30 pm. I have a sneaking suspicion that this could be part of the problem.
  4. Drink 1 glass of water before every meal to not only hydrate but aid in feeling fuller faster.
  5. Hit the sack no later than 10:30pm. I’ll aim to actually be in the bed by 10:00pm. This is gonna be my biggest challenge.

I welcome your tips and tricks that help you stay on course. I’ll holla……….

Damn Cameras!

I have been feeling so discouraged lately. The scale aint moving ya’ll! I fluctuate between 179 and 180, and I’m beginning to question my motivation. I feel like it’s way too early in the game to hit a plateau, but I’m no expert. I’ve been busting my ass with working out and trying to eat well. I know I said I was going to take the slow and steady approach, but damn! This is the most active I’ve been in about 6 years. I’ve been taking pictures of myself to try and chart my progress, and I swear my big ass looks the same as when I started this venture in April. I even e-mailed Myia from work yesterday, and asked, WTF? She told me the camera adds 10 pounds. Ten pounds! Shit! So I basically need to lose 20 pounds to look halfway decent in a picture. Where is the ephedra when I need it most? Just kidding! Seriously though, I took epehdra about 8 years ago when it was the latest diet craze, and I won’t lie to ya’ll-I lost an insane amount of weight. I looked great, I felt great, and then BAM! It was banned. It all went down hill from there. My workouts weren’t as fueled. I became listless from the withdrawal, and I gave up. I was an addict and didn’t even know it.

I’m trying to do the right thing-eating right, exercising. But I’m not feeling very inspired right now. I’m still pushing on, but I need some encouragement from my sisters. Can a sista get some love right now?

Only 10 pounds until I’m fat…

So, my definition of obesity is the point at which you are so large that people cannot tell when you GAIN or LOSE 25 pounds.  At 200 lbs, everyone told me they couldn’t tell I had gained weight.  At a size 16, 60 lbs heavier than when I started my job 3 years ago at a size 6-8, my coworkers were saying ‘I didn’t need to lose a pound’ that they ‘couldn’t tell I had gained any weight.’  It just made me sick.  I thought, “How could I gain 60 lbs and NO ONE has noticed.” Well, I gained the weight slowly – over 3 years – so to them, I had gotten to that critical point where one could not tell if I gained or lost any weight.  So, for the last 6 months or so, I have been saying, “I need to lose 25 lbs to be fat.”  Meaning – I need to lose 25 lbs so that when I lose or gain any more weight, people actually notice.  Well, with 200 lbs as the hi point and 25 lbs as my “fat” vs obese benchmarks, I am now only 10 lbs away from my goal of being fat.  I’ve lost 15 lbs and no one can tell a thing!

Once I get to 175 and start losing more weight, people will say – “did you do something with your hair,” “what’s different about your make up,” “you just have this new light about you and I have no idea what it is.”  At 26 lbs, I swear, people will say, “damn, you lost weight,” “you’re looking thinner,” “your clothes are just hanging off of you.” 

It’s ok though.  I understand the rules…

Obesity – the point at which you are SO LARGE people who see you on even a semi-regular basis (x1 per month!) cannot tell if you gain or lose 1 – 25 lbs.

Fat – the point at which you are still overweight (your BMI is unhealty, you shop in plus size, etc) but if you gain or lose 1 lb and people finally notice “there’s something different about you.

Close to goal, but still not there – the point at which you are still overweight (still don’t have a perfect BMI, 2 – 3 sizes above your ideal weight), but people are saying “wow, you are really on your way,” “dag, what diet are you on because I want to lose too,” “you’ve lost a lot of weight.”

Reached your goal, within 5 lbs – the point at which you can fit into your ideal size 1/3 of the time, your ideal size is too small for you 1/3 of the time, your ideal size is too big for you 1/3 of the time…it just depends on the cut and/or brand. At this stage, people will say, “oh my God, you’re so small. you’re not going to lose anymore,” “you can’t still be dieting,” “you look like a totally different person, wow!”

So…where are you on this scale?

That Black Background Was Depressing Me!

Sorry Myia, but it had to go! Maybe this will inspire me to post more consistently:-)

fattymcfatterson join us…

Hi there!  Glad to have inspired someone…this journey gets discouraging at times and to hear that someone has been sparked to change is amazing!  I haven’t blogged in forever – but I have still been keeping myself in check.  Now I’m back in full effect and I’m going to try not to fall off again.  I want to commit to my commitment!  If you want to join us here at FB&LI, you can.  You don’t have to be Black, you just have to be willing to “lose it” with us!