Myia’s Profile

motivation for losing weight, i.e., The Rock Bottom Factor

I had been shopping at Lane Bryant for 2 years and calling myself “America’s Next Top Plus-Sized Supermodel.”  I thought I looked so good!!!  Then sometime in February I noticed I had 5 titties!  The two on top, which have exploded into a size FF!, 2 on my back that are actually fat folds and a HUGE stomach tit that’s flappy and dotted with a navel nipple.

 

what lead to the weight gain

I moved to New York 3 years ago and I was 155 lbs.  At the time, I was like, “I’m 10 lbs overweight!”  I put on about 10 more pounds just working, stressing and eating! Then, I lost 25 lbs on Weight Watchers.  I was so happy.  But…that’s not where the story ended, obviously.  In the last 2 years, I’ve ballooned to 200 lbs!  Unhappiness at work, problems in my relationship, missing friends and family, loss/depression, drinking & partying, not caring – just everything converged at the right moment and I allowed myself – make that I actively destroyed my figure.  It’s been really easy to gain the weight – and most of the time, it felt really good.  I fell in love with food and junk and sedentary life and drinking with my buddies.  Now here I am, Fat, Black and Losing my damn mind ‘cause I need to lose “a medium sized child,” or “a large dog,” or “a heavy ‘team-lift’ piece of furniture” from my body.

 

goals

I want to lose 60 pounds!  It’s got to be done.

 

body likes/dislikes

Hmm…I like the large breasts fatdom has brought me.  I dislike everything else!  Cottage cheese thighs, bloated middle, saddle bags on my back and hips, flabby arms that I don’t want to show – and the worst, STRETCH MARKS!!!

 

biggest challenge (time, work, etc)

My biggest challenge is myself!  I like being lazy, I like eating and I love a good cocktail.  I think going to the gym is going to be very difficult for me.  But, I’m going to do my best this time around.  I don’t want to let myself down and I want to make sure that I’m doing my best for the girls on my team.

 

greatest food temptation

Hmm…chocolate chip cookies, Cheetos Naturals, MEAT, carrot cake, LIQUOR.

 

dream or goal outfit

I want to wear this pair of tight fitting size 8 jeans that I got 8 years ago!  More realistically, I’d like to just be able to maintain my food and exercise regimen.  I don’t want to give up on myself.

 

ideal body/celebrity inspiration

Gabrielle Union – but with a lil’ more “mmm, mmm, mmm.”

 

course of action (diet, exercise, etc)

Jenny Craig with some gym on the side.

  1. Today was a really hard day for me. I had a lot of work pressure and I had a lot of emotional stuff to deal with. I didnt drink enough water – I’m missing 16oz, but I was perfect with my food and I didn’t eat junk, I didn’t drink and I didn’t shop! And I walked 2 miles! It was great to walk but my damn thighs rubbed together the whole time. The burning was impossible. I actually would have walked another mile, but my flesh felt like it was going to rub away.

    I’m very proud of myself for holding firm under pressure. I went to the grocery store tonight and got a few things to aid in my journey – fat free half-and half (flavored and unflavored), sugar-free chocolate syrup, fat free cool whip, fat free salad dressing and a lot of Crystal Light.

    As Alisa said, we have a lot of parties this weekend but I’m going to try hard to be really good. Tomorrow night, I’m eating Jenny Craig pizza and I’ll have a couple of drinks and fat free chips – but I’m gonna be a good girl. I’ll check in again Saturday morning to report.

  2. We will get through this weekend, and be better for it. A true test of our will-power, but I will be there for you and you will be there for me.

  3. fattymcfatterton

    you have really inspired me to start my own weight loss journey. sounds soooo cheesy but true. Thanks sooo much!!!

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