motivation for losing weight, i.e., The Rock Bottom Factor
I had been shopping at Lane Bryant for 2 years and calling myself “America’s Next Top Plus-Sized Supermodel.” I thought I looked so good!!! Then sometime in February I noticed I had 5 titties! The two on top, which have exploded into a size FF!, 2 on my back that are actually fat folds and a HUGE stomach tit that’s flappy and dotted with a navel nipple.
what lead to the weight gain
I moved to New York 3 years ago and I was 155 lbs. At the time, I was like, “I’m 10 lbs overweight!” I put on about 10 more pounds just working, stressing and eating! Then, I lost 25 lbs on Weight Watchers. I was so happy. But…that’s not where the story ended, obviously. In the last 2 years, I’ve ballooned to 200 lbs! Unhappiness at work, problems in my relationship, missing friends and family, loss/depression, drinking & partying, not caring – just everything converged at the right moment and I allowed myself – make that I actively destroyed my figure. It’s been really easy to gain the weight – and most of the time, it felt really good. I fell in love with food and junk and sedentary life and drinking with my buddies. Now here I am, Fat, Black and Losing my damn mind ‘cause I need to lose “a medium sized child,” or “a large dog,” or “a heavy ‘team-lift’ piece of furniture” from my body.
I want to lose 60 pounds! It’s got to be done.
Hmm…I like the large breasts fatdom has brought me. I dislike everything else! Cottage cheese thighs, bloated middle, saddle bags on my back and hips, flabby arms that I don’t want to show – and the worst, STRETCH MARKS!!!
biggest challenge (time, work, etc)
My biggest challenge is myself! I like being lazy, I like eating and I love a good cocktail. I think going to the gym is going to be very difficult for me. But, I’m going to do my best this time around. I don’t want to let myself down and I want to make sure that I’m doing my best for the girls on my team.
greatest food temptation
Hmm…chocolate chip cookies, Cheetos Naturals, MEAT, carrot cake, LIQUOR.
dream or goal outfit
I want to wear this pair of tight fitting size 8 jeans that I got 8 years ago! More realistically, I’d like to just be able to maintain my food and exercise regimen. I don’t want to give up on myself.
ideal body/celebrity inspiration
Gabrielle Union – but with a lil’ more “mmm, mmm, mmm.”
course of action (diet, exercise, etc)
Jenny Craig with some gym on the side.