This past Thursday I went on a major binge-I went to McDonald’s and got a #2 (Quarter Pounder w/cheese, medium fries, and a Sprite), a small strawberry shake, and two apple pies. BUT, I did not eat everything in one sitting. OKAY, I save ONE pie til yesterday! I felt like a crackhead who just relapsed afterward. I woke up extra early on Friday and worked out semi-hard for 30 minutes. I did The Biggest Loser Cardio Sculpt Level One. That ish is no joke. I feel motivated when I see fat people moving and sweatin’ along with my fat ass. If they can do it, I know I can do it. I felt I’d somewhat redeemed myself until lunchtime. I went to the little carryout down the street from my office. Here’s a clue-when you see or use the word CARRYOUT, 9 times out of 10, you did not buy anything remotely healthy. So what did I buy? I got a 10 pc bbq wings (they’re the wingettes, not 10 who wings thank you!) with fries and a side of potato salad, and an ice cold Sprite to wash it all down. Yeah, I’m a crackhead……
Saturday morning, I had every intention of waking up early (the road to hell is paved with good intentions) and working out. NOPE! Woke up about 11:30, brushed my teeth, and rushed to The Post Office to pick up some packages I thought would be there. NOPE! Weren’t there. Pissed! I then hit the Safeway to pick up a few things including a gift card and flowers for my aunt’s b-day which was the 1st. That set me back about $75! It’s sad when you have to charge your groceries, but I did. It’s the first of the month. My rent and phone/cable/Internet bill are due and that’s practically my entire paycheck. Anyway, I go to my grandmother’s house for a little informal party for my aunt, who’s 54 now (yeah, I put it out there!) and I ate a big, fat, fried chicken tit with a biscuit from KFC. To top all that off, I ate a two-layer piece of yellow b-day cake with a scoop of Neapolitan ice cream. Yeah, I’m a crackhead!
So what did you eat today, Fat Trice? I ate nothing…until I went to the mall with my cousin. It was an outlet mall, therefore, I had to walk, therefore, I exercised! I had a hotdog with chili and cole slaw on it, and it was f*cking delish! It was messy and greasy and I cursed myself with every delicious bite. But I walked it off! Shopping is exercise, dammit!
I am so freakin excited! My new course of action is working. I’ve lost 5 more pounds. I got on the scale this morning, and it read 175. What a breakthrough! I swear just two days ago, I was about to throw in the towel. I measured my waistline, and it was a whopping 38 inches. I felt so defeated. That was only a one inch loss since I started working out in April. I’ve been busting my balls working out, and I’ve only lost a freakin inch in my waist! I was about to go on a major binge, when something just stopped me. Call it divine intervention. I don’t know. There was this inner voice telling me not to give up, and I didn’t. I’ve been sticking to my workouts diligently. Two a day. I’ve incorporated 30 minutes of Pilates into my regimen once a week. I’ve been cutting off my meals by 8:45pm (ok, the 8:30 threshold wasn’t quite working.) I’ve been in the bed by 10:15pm every night, and it’s back up at 6:15am to start my day. The morning workouts have really bolstered my confidence and stamina. I look forward to starting my day after working out in the mornings now. When I get home in the evenings, I’m mentally exhausted, but I workout. If I don’t, I feel so guilty, that I push myself even harder he next day. So, my confidence and determination are now renewed. I’m sticking with the plan, and I look forward to the next 5 pounds. I’ll holla….
This plateau is weighing heavily on my mind. It’s 2008, and I’ll be damned if I go through another summer wearing black or 3/4 length sleeves. Here’s my short-term game plan:
- Keep a food diary for one week to really assess what I’m stuffing down my throat.
- Amp up my workouts. I’m currently on Level 2 of Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred. It’s 20 minutes of hell and back, but I plan to do two workouts a day: I’ll do the advanced Level 1 in the morning and the beginner Level 2 in the evening. That will be a total of 40 minutes of exercise a day.
- Stop eating by 8:30 pm. I have a sneaking suspicion that this could be part of the problem.
- Drink 1 glass of water before every meal to not only hydrate but aid in feeling fuller faster.
- Hit the sack no later than 10:30pm. I’ll aim to actually be in the bed by 10:00pm. This is gonna be my biggest challenge.
I welcome your tips and tricks that help you stay on course. I’ll holla……….
I know I could have probably lost another 2-3 pounds over the last week. Inhaling a combination of peanut and peanut butter M&M’s has not helped my efforts, but you know what? I feel pretty damned good about it. I didn’t freak out or give up like I normally do. Six months ago, if I wouldn’t have seen huge numbers move on the scale, I would have said “Fuck it,” and gone to Hogs On the Hill for a large BBQ pork rib platter with homestyle potato salad, collard greens, corn bread, and sweet potato pie. Damn that sounds good right about now. I’m salivating at the thought.
This week, I’m graduating to Level 2 of Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred. I’m ready because Level 1 is actually easy and predictable. I’m also doing The Biggest Loser Cardio Max twice a week. That ish aint no joke! I think I actually like it better than Jillian’s workout.
The slow and steady approach is really working for me. I set myself up for disappointment when I place to many high expectations on myself. Yes, I’m thwarting my weight loss efforts to a degree when I give in to my temptations, but I’ve learned not to give up. I have learned the art of compromise, but more importantly, I’ve learned the meaning of perseverance.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers reading this post!
I am openly admitting that I was not good last week. What do I mean by good? Well, I sort of gave in to my peanut M&M addiction and had a couple of bags. I’ve been eating those Bob Evans sausage biscuits for breakfast. I could go on, but you get the picture. I’ve been trying my damndest to make good food choices. What’s been keeping me on track, relatively speaking, is making swaps. For instance, if I decide to have a piece of chocolate at lunch, then I won’t eat any dessert after dinner or I’ll drink water with my meal instead of having a soda or juice. Doing these swaps are saving me calories and my sanity. Deprivation does not work for me, so by doing these little trade offs, it’s working.
While I’m still stuck at 180, I’m relieved that I didn’t gain any weight. My endurance continues to grow by the day. Starting the workout is always toughest for me. When I get home from work, I’m mentally exhausted, and I have no desire to workout. Physical exercise in my opinion is far more mental than physical. To psyche myself up, when I get home, I immediately open my living room windows to not only let in the fresh air, but to give me the feeling of being outdoors. I then turn on my halogen lamp to brighten up the room. Next I immediately change into my workout clothes. This way I feel obligated to work out. After changing clothes, I’ll eat something light like a banana, kiwi, or small cup of yogurt. I wash it down with a cup of water. Thirty minutes later, I’m ready to bust a sweat. My energy level is elevated, and I’m actually looking forward to sweating. It’s a major sense of accomplishment for me. If I’m not dripping at the end of my workout, I feel like I’ve just wasted my time.
Well that’s my routine for now. I’m still doing Jillian’s 30 Day Shred. This will be my 3rd or 4th week. I’ve lost track. I’m about 7 pounds down. Not bad, but I know I could do better. I’ll check in again on Wednesday or Thursday. I’ll holla……….
Sometimes having too many food choices is worst than having none! Case in point: I finally went to the grocery store on Sunday, and I really stocked up. I was literally on “E” and now that I have food, I find myself not knowing what I want to eat, and I sometimes end up making the wrong choices. So my question is, how do you find a healthy balance? I am doing this without any diet aids, meaning, no pills, no weight loss centers, no special foods….I’m actually training myself to know when to say when. I have this really bad habit of overeating. I’ve since learned to slow down while I eat, and you know what? It actually works. I’m learning to savor every bite, and I’m getting fuller faster, thus not needing a second helping. I’m up to 4 glasses of water a day. Hey, that’s a big freaking deal for me! Ask anyone who really knows me!
I have not weighed myself since Sunday, and I only plan on weighing in once a week-naked and on an empty stomach, lol. Why is it I’m in my third week of exercise, and it’s not getting any easier? I don’t pause between sets like I did the first week, but I’m still barely getting through the workout. I’m like, WTF? My muscles sweetly ache, but I swear I can’t get through two sets of jumping jacks. I do see a little definition in my arms. I’m up to 20 modified push-ups now. My size 16 skirts have a little give in the waist. Even my XL Old Navy t-shirts are hanging a little looser. Guess what else I can do? Reverse crunches! Hot damn! There was a time not too long ago that I couldn’t get my fat ass off the floor. Now I’m pumping them out!
I can’t wait to hear from the other girls. I’d like to know how their progress is going. Post ladies!!!!!
Hi. It’s Trice. I have been so bad these last three days, it aint even funny. First of all, don’t start a new, dare I say, diet, without food shopping first. You set yourself up for all kinds of disasters. I’ve been eating garbage all week-french fries, a half smoke, cheez curlz. Hold up! Don’t I get credit for eating organic cheez curlz? I should. They’re bland as hell. They’re only good for the crunch factor. One thing I can say: I haven’t had a soda in two whole days. That’s like two weeks in Trice years. I’m on a streak. I’ve drank a bottle of water a day. That’s like a liter in Trice years. Give me some credit dammit! I’m weak. I’m struggling. I’m losing something alright. I’m losing my damn mind!
As far as exercise is concerned, I’m a day late and a dollar short. I did not work out Monday as planned. I can give you a thousand and one excuses, but they are just that-excuses. I did start yesterday, and I damn near died! I’m doing Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred. It’s three, 20 minute workouts, and when I tell you that that 20 minutes felt like 20 hours, I am not exaggerating! You may think 20 minutes aint jack, but for someone who is relatively inactive, it really feels like an hour. I was sweating buckets! My heart rate averaged about 150 which is great. My body aches, which is a good sign. I do my workouts in the evening. One, it really helps me unwind from my day, and two, it really prepares my body for a great, deep sleep. I just need to go to sleep a little earlier.
I’m dying to see how Myia’s post will read. I think she’s been as bad as I’ve been. We’re sisters, but I think there’s a secret competition going on between us. Later, gators!
Check out the two fat, black chicks on Christmas. Guess who’s whom?