in your own closet. Are you like me and have clothes in your closet that you know your fat ass can’t fit but can’t bear to part with for sentimental reasons or because you were once the ish when you wore it? Well, I hold on to my “skinny” clothes for both of those reasons. There’s one particular dress that holds so many wonderful memories for me.
One, I found this LBD (that’s little, black dress for all you non-fashionistas) on the clearance rack at Banana Republic for $24.99 back in 2001! It’s made of matte jersey and Lycra, and it hugged my sexy frame in all the right places. It has a v-neck slit that shows just the right amount of cleav, and it hugged my ass so sweetly. The dress was a Large which in my opinion runs kinda small at Banana, so I was even more happy to be able to fit it. This was my go-to outfit if I wanted to be the bomb!
Two, I wore the dress for my 30th birthday dinner, but it wasn’t just any old dinner. It was this massive, surprise party that Myia put together for me. I thought she and her man, and I and my man would just have a quiet dinner that night, but when we were lead to our table, all of my close family, friends, and co-workers were there. Talk about a surprise! It was one of the most memorable moments of my life. Not to mention the fact that a sista was looking “SPLA-KOW!!!!”
Lastly, this dress turned my man ON!!!! He’d get pissed if I talked about wearing it to work, and I’d always mess with his head by threatening to wear it. When I wore this dress, I knew I was gittin’ some! Ah….the memories. TMI? Whateva!
So, here the dress hangs on the back of my closet door begging to be worn. Now, I could squeeze my fat ass in it, but I’m not hardly trying to look 4 months preggers! My ass has spread a little wider than I’d like, and the stretch marks on my arms do not need any extra attention right now. BUT I’M WORKING ON IT!!!!! So, I leave you with a pic of me and the dress during the good times, and the dress looking sad and pathetic on its hanger. LBD, I’m coming baby. Hold on….
Sometimes having too many food choices is worst than having none! Case in point: I finally went to the grocery store on Sunday, and I really stocked up. I was literally on “E” and now that I have food, I find myself not knowing what I want to eat, and I sometimes end up making the wrong choices. So my question is, how do you find a healthy balance? I am doing this without any diet aids, meaning, no pills, no weight loss centers, no special foods….I’m actually training myself to know when to say when. I have this really bad habit of overeating. I’ve since learned to slow down while I eat, and you know what? It actually works. I’m learning to savor every bite, and I’m getting fuller faster, thus not needing a second helping. I’m up to 4 glasses of water a day. Hey, that’s a big freaking deal for me! Ask anyone who really knows me!
I have not weighed myself since Sunday, and I only plan on weighing in once a week-naked and on an empty stomach, lol. Why is it I’m in my third week of exercise, and it’s not getting any easier? I don’t pause between sets like I did the first week, but I’m still barely getting through the workout. I’m like, WTF? My muscles sweetly ache, but I swear I can’t get through two sets of jumping jacks. I do see a little definition in my arms. I’m up to 20 modified push-ups now. My size 16 skirts have a little give in the waist. Even my XL Old Navy t-shirts are hanging a little looser. Guess what else I can do? Reverse crunches! Hot damn! There was a time not too long ago that I couldn’t get my fat ass off the floor. Now I’m pumping them out!
I can’t wait to hear from the other girls. I’d like to know how their progress is going. Post ladies!!!!!
While I’m happy to report this, I believe I could have lost an additional 2-3 pounds. I was really bad this last week. Let this be a lesson to those who are trying to eat for the better: Go to the grocery store! Don’t attempt to start a new way of eating if you one, have no food in your house, or two, you still have the garbage you were eating before you started “dieting” (I hate this word, by the way because to me it signifies that you are only trying to lose weight for a special ocassion or purpose.) Anyhoo, I did not have any food in the house, so I relied heavily on the local eatery down the street from my job. I bought breakfast there twice last week-an egg and scrapple sandwich on wheat toast. Damn they were good! Do ya’ll know what scrapple is? It aint nothing but the truth, but it’ll kill you if you eat it all the time (ok, it won’t literally kill you, but prepare for a lifetime of health issues.) Scrapple is what the name implies: scraps of this and that from the pig. It’s a notch down from balogna and hot dogs (both of which I love.) When you fry the scrapple, the ends get nice and crisp and the middle is soft and tender. It’s seasoned with sage and other spices, and it comes packaged in a loaf or brick usually in the breakfast meats section. Why do things that taste so damn good are usually bad for you?
What’s my secret to the steady weight loss? This may sound corny as hell, but the honest truth is the secret to my success is commitment. I have committed myself to eating healthier and working out consistently. They say it takes about 3 weeks for something to become a habit, and today marks the beginning of my third week. I feel better. I’m sleeping better. My clothes are fitting slightly better. My body is actually craving movement now. I have truly shocked my system-not just with the exercise, but the water I’m drinking! Anyone who knows me knows I hate water. I’m down to one soda a day now, but I’m still addicted to peanut M&M’s. They’re my daily treat, and I eat the small bag as opposed to the king size I use to devour. For me, it’s making little changes instead of overwhelming myself with un-doable or cold turkey tactics.
I’m still working out with Jillian, and my endurance is getting stronger by the day. The 20 minutes only now feel like 45 instead of an hour. Just when I think I can’t take it anymore, it’s time for the cool down! I hope to progress to Level 2 in the next few weeks. My goal for this week is to increase my water intake by 8 oz. Hey, you gotta crawl before you can walk. I’m on the path to slimdom. I’ll holla…..
I’d like to give a special shout out to my fat, black chick of a sister Myia. Today she is the big 2-9. The last year of her roaring 20’s! I barely remember my 29th. I was working a shitty job, but I was making decent money at the time. I was in love. Enought about me! Myia’s living it up in Disney World now. I hope she hasn’t strayed too far off her diet. For the coming year I wish her good health, lots of wealth (and not just monetary), and many more years to come!
Yes, I know in my last post I said I was going to post on Wednesday, but I got caught up. I will give the full skinny in Sunday’s post.
I dug this pic out the stacks. It’s one of my faves. We were too cute!